LOST

suddenly, i'm overwhelmed with feelings.
i feel really lost rite now,it's like i'm at a major crossroad.
medicine? yes? no? other career? sime darby? yes? no? overseas? local? which college? n everything else...
i'm so uncertain, everything seems so blurry and i'm so scare to look into the future n out of this currently *comfort zone*.
i dun mind any job as long as it involves people, i just want to help people, is it tat hard?! i dont even mind to just lead a simple life and do some volunteer work with children or the orang asli kids, refugees..
fan sei yan la!

i have always dreamed to put an end to human tracfficking, it has alwazys been bugging my heart, but i just dont know where to start. it's so saddening to know tat even children are used. i just want to make a difference in this world, is it tat hard? can some one look into my heart and use me from there. i'm tired of all these uncertainties, tired of studying so crazily. i want to use my gift n offer it to the society especially the needy ones. i think i can be a good doctor but i dont think i can cope with a doctor's life even though i know i'm tough.

the worries is always there. TER 97 n above is really way too high for me to achieve. it's not that i dun trust myself but i know my ability.
i dont want to be a burden to my family. just really hope i can achieve TER90 so that we dont need to pay back the whole course of SAM in taylors college. and if..... just if.... it does happen, i think i will find a job to cover up some of the cost. i dont want my parents to be entangled in this mess. =(

hmmm.. it really takes a big step of trusting in You, LORD!
i just pray that in Your timing, that You will reveal to me what is Your will for me.

for old time sake~

college is FINALLY OFFICIALLY over =(
in life, we meet many acquntances, is tat how u spell it? LOL!
BUT i believe this few are NOT. although i cant predict the future, i believe n know tat we can keep in contact n be true frens! =)
i miss these times~

LAB PARTNER!!! i miss this times, the time we did loads of MISTAKES but had fun doing it n would LAUGH till we go on the floor! =) mich! will alwaz remember the times we had, promise to keep in contact ok! =)

CANDICE! ur favourite hang out place yea?? OUTSIDE AC, with umbrella up!! YOU THINK YOU COOLER THAN US??! LOL! dice! we have went thru so much, n i trust that we can maintain this friendship! 

my DEAR housemate! we have only known each other this year! they say staying together is the real test of frenship! n i dunno how we grew so close to each other.

shernz n becks~ sighssss.... we must really catch up soon, we have drifted so far apart. but no matter what, i just want you all to know, both of you are still in my heart n thoughts. hope to have all the stayovers again!=) i know tat we can surely be closely knitted n bonded once again!=) n smething deep down inside tells me, we can keep in touch no matter what!

i thank God for giving all of you to me. it's really a GIFT! =)

a year to remember!

wow! it's been a year! n i dunno where to start writing from.

well, this is the AWESO-MEST n CRAZI-EST bunch of people i have ever met in my life.

we went through happy,fun,funny,sad,downs n ups together n we r united as a class! G8, u rock!
i will never forget the sweet moments we had together~

i remember very clearly the night i got a warning letter frm SD, that was my worst week ever during this year, cant even explan how i felt. and SO i want to say thank you to candice n michelle, for treatiing me with the chocolate fondue in citrus plus. that was the sweetest thing some one ever did for me~ besides, u kept me so occupied that i could literally forget about that worry! THANK YOU! love u guys so much!!

and thanks kor kor wen shi, for listening to me on msn in the middle of the night, u were the only one online and did not hesitate to talk with me even though u were busy. thanks a lot, it made me feel so much better.

G8 was where i felt belong, felt love n felt comfortable!=) *smiles*

so anywaz, in college, especially in G8, i'm the JOKE of the year. n i suppose it's cz i do n say all the crazy n stupit stuffs! LOL! but well, i enjoyed hearing all the laughter around me!=)

i will definitely miss all thee times.=) we MUST keep in contact i hope!

SAM!........ one word..... TOUGH.STRESSFUL.BUSY.HECTIC.
it made me loose self confidence n feel stupid n broke down twice. but anywaz, i have pulled through and survived it! n i know the main thing that brought me through is you all, G8! bcause in the midst of all these down moments, i had LOADS OF FUN with you all!!!!!!!!!!!! super a lot!
thanks for being there, candice,michelle,priscilla,lilian,wen shi n everyne else! all of you alwaz make my day!

And also THANK YOU GOD for holding my hands all the way, You have never break your promise before-
never will i leave you, never will i forsake you.
even when i was faithless, u stayed faithul!=) I love you LORD!

toodles~