...not a coincidence

when feelings overwhelmed, and when i dun knw wat to do, just feel like coming here to blabber and write. hahaha!

something really coincident happen this week. just at the beginning of the week, i was chatting with this friend and we had a heart to heart talk and he told me how his mother pass away from cancer. and then on friday, after exams, i was walking around doing groceries shopping. and i heard my name, turned around and saw one of my friends. and he too, shared about how he recently lost his father.
IN THE SAME WEEK, there's two person who came to me sharing about how they lost their loved ones. it was so coincident and i felt like God was talking to me as if He's trying to tell me something.
and i guess, i realised that life is so unpredictable, and He was like telling me to APPRECIATE my family while i have them.
i felt really sad for them, i was lost for words, because i really cant imagine what its like living without my mother/ father. i would not know how to recover as well. and im very sure it will take them a LONG TIME to recover.
besides, it made me realised, im very blessed already that i have a loving COMPLETE family and should stop complaining bout this bout that and all. =)

2011, even the beginning was very busy already. and when i tend to get busy, i tend to neglect God. i started asking and wondering WHERE IS MY HEART that i once had? last time i used to CARE so much, i would write little little notes to my cell group members encouraging them and all, i would have a burning passion to spread the good news to my friends, i would have the desire to bear a good testimony, i would have the longing to be close to God and all. it's like my heart is growing colder nowadays. and i prayed the same prayer over n over again, saying to God please bring me back to Him and yet not doing anything about it. i must start setting apart time for Him once again.

my thoughts are very messy now. i know that it's very dangerous to say this prayer, but sometimes i do wish that my life would have more challenges, because i know that it is IN DIFFICULTIES, IN HARDSHIPS that we learnt the most, that i learn to depend on God the most. and i want to moulded and pruned by God even if it means breaking me down. i know that, in that way, i'll be closer to God. some tme i wish to be put thru hard times just to experience it n grow more into a stronger person. hmm, i knw im kinda weird, who would want challenges in their lives and complain bout how good life is. LOL! i dunno wat am i thinking larh. hahaha!

studies have been a challenge and i just only found out that my minimum requirement for sime darby is 75 and above. didnt knw tat it was tat hard at first. ITS actually a REALLY REALLY high mark and im scared. i started to wonder what if i really cant achieve it? then where would my life end up to be? hmmm. =)

anywaz, im just blaberring a lot nao. just to release some thoughts on my mind.

last week, as i went out for outings, i suddenly miss all my G8 frens a lot, its like places that i go to, i can actually imagine them there and by just thinking of them, it puts a smile on mu face. =) i dont think i will ever find a bunch of people like them where i can be so comfortable, who would go crazy WITH me and all. cant wait for another outing with them!! =)